April 10th 2019.
I feel like I have had this feeling a lot lately.
The day wraps up, I am closing down my work. And in my head I keep thinking, “today was not a good day.” I am also thinking, “I am the only one that feels like this.”
It sucks.
I am your average 30-something. Moderately successful on paper, good job, good husband, good family. In many respects, I have pretty much everything I ever wanted. But there is this nagging feeling that there should be something else. Something else to do, something better to do. But I almost feel crippled by the “doing.”
So I do the watching. I find people like Tony Robbins, Tim Ferriss, Lewis Howes, Rachel Hollis, and every other ‘go-getter, don’t live in fear, preacher-without-religious-stuff’ type out there. And I really like it, I listen to it on a run, get all these great ideas, and then I don’t do anything about it.
Therefore, here I am. Today was not a good day.
I am starting this blog to start taking accountability for the doing. In a world of unlimited content there is no excuse for not knowing. But I almost feel like we know too much. There are too many things. I just want to do one thing. Every day. And I am hoping to hold myself accountable and just post it to the universe because when it’s a google doc that only I can access, nothing ever happens.
I also secretly wonder if there are a lot of other people like me. That have the want and are kind of sick of seeing people that are sharing the rags to riches story, post-riches. It’s easy to be vulnerable when you’re landing book deals and going on Ellen. (Not salty, but its true!)
What’s funny is that when I was in my 20’s — I thought about starting a blog as a 20-something struggle. But have found that my 30’s are ultimately much more confusing and I have way more to lose. Truthfully it would have been way better to have done this 10 years ago when blogging wasn’t everywhere but I really don’t even care if anyone even reads this. (If I am being honest I literally hope no one reads this.) But I have no idea what to do with myself anymore if I don’t start getting these thoughts out of my head.
My only goal of this 5 minute exercise is that tonight when I sit down after dinner is that, “Today wasn’t so bad.” Because at least I tried something.
More to come…
#struggle
That 30-something #struggle 